Eraser

Ever had a eraser
unlike any other
not just one for erasing pencil marks
but big mistakes of your not so distant past.

Mistakes like these come but never go
they'll always stay there only to haunt you like a ghost
oh how i wish i had a eraser
that one unlike any other
just to erase these mistakes i made
to remove these bad cards i've played.

sometimes u cant find that special eraser
to rub off the black marks
off your life's permanent record
sometimes you just gotta move on
to that special someone who just makes u feel like you belong.
love and truth be told
i've found that special someone
but this someone, doesn't know
should i tell her? should i not
this is a tale left, to be forgot
not something for you to know
or to find out
because this is the tale
where life begins to comes about.

Silence is Bliss

Have you ever been deaf?
totally unaware of what was going on everywhere?
being deaf is pretty sad
some might even call it bad
but from this life i've lead
i'm actually pretty glad

In the silence i find my peace
away from this world's sounds and its decrees
turning a blind eye to them may be nice
but what better than a deaf ear
to keep out their lies

Silence is definitely bliss
a place i always find my rest
in this domain i don't feel pain
unlike the world where i've lived in shame

In this silence, i feel joy
Almost like a kid receiving a gift or toy
Indeed like a present i've found
from the lack of being able to hear sound
sure it may suck from time to time
but it's definitely not something which would make me whine
and on this note
i end this passage i wrote
which starts from the time
my ear refuses to comply

Balloons

I once had a bright red balloon
something which my mom used to tell me to hold tight onto
onto its string i placed my grip
in palm and always around my wrist

as i walked down the lonely sidewalk of life
this balloon began to fill up with sorrow and strife
slowly this balloon began to fill with more air
and rise above the ground, much more than i would ever dare
it broke away from the sidewalk of life
out into the big blue sky

it then started to rain
lightning and thunder came once again
it came as soon as it left
leaving streaks of white and blue across this land
next thing i knew
i saw a stripe of blue
come down in front of my face
much faster than what my memory could erase

i looked down to the ground
only to call my balloon found
and mine once again
it was totally blown apart
much like the dreams i once held close to my heart
still it bled the sorrow and shame
and i knew this because this balloon still. had. my. name.

Midget Attack

it was a cold monday night
when the midget came by
he planted a seed
one filled with hatred and greed
slowly this seed grew
the next day it began to bloom

its tuesday now
and its the end of the respite
the oversized man
drew his long knife
he attacked back at the midget with words
only to have more thrown back
than what he had hurled

the midget attacked
spitting black fire from his mouth
out came the flame
which would never go out
words said leave a mark
something which can never torn out
leaving a wound
one which wont heal soon

after the years go by
these midgets lies
will be dead and gone
leaving cindering logs
of the rubbish he's proclaimed
from a life full of shame
only to leave behind an empty shell
off something i used to call a 'pal'

Learning to breath

It's all just cuz i'm learning to breathe
i'm learning to smile
to take a small step back
and walk away from this life
one filled with hatred
one filled with pain
gosh i don't know why hasnt this life made me insane

what if it was meant to be
all this shit thats been happening to me
all this pressure
all this pain
something so mundane
what if its all a test
something set by someone to seperate me from the rest
what if.

this could all be part of life
like those fuel notes that told me 'faith overcomes trials'
the trials that bind
what if all this were part of the plan
something not set in sand
but a plan solid and true
something written in black and blue

maybe its time
i broke of this chain
chained to the life i'd tried to give up
because i thought the problems were lame.
it was like ' why suffer when i can run? '
i could just hop on my bike and jump the gun.

thank something i didnt
that i didnt just leave
that something saved me
from a darker world unseen

now decisions have to be made
choices have to be selected
whether to make or break
to live life well.
or to just leave it rejected.

Souljaboy DarkMix

Souljaboy off in this oh
Off the edge
or out the window
watch me crank that soul tonight
then go superman and oh
now watch me go
now watch me go

Souljaboy off like a rock
watch me lean and watch me duck
now watch me crank that soul tonight
or just watch it right

souljaboy off in this oh
off the edge or out the window
watch me crank that soul tonight
then go superman and ohh
out the window
and ohh
now watch me go

souljaboy darkmix
-Joshua Au c2009

Love.

Love is patient
Love is kind
Once an emotion given
From someone divine

Sinful in nature
Holy in truth
Love is an emotion
But also a deadly tool

It never forgives
It never forgets
Leaving horrid scars
On your mind's inner depths
It is gently brutal
Terrifyingly sweet
Not something
You'd be able to keep

Always moving
Always changing
Never staying
on the same victim

Leaving behind death and brimstone in its wake
And thats what it did just yesterday

Slowly it eats you
And tears you apart
Tearing you from the inside
Starting with the heart

Everything else stops
Ceases to exist
When this drug called love
Leaves ur lips

Unforgiving as I had said
Never allowing you to forget
Of that one time you fell in love
That one time she broke your heart

2 sides of a coin

To every coin
there 2 sides
one will remain in darkness
and the other remaining in light
Some call it heads
Some call it tails
What I call it
is what life entails

A dear friend of mine,
now our lives intertwined
spoke words of life
into this broken spirit of mine
Words of life
Words of wisdom
Which have uplifted this soul
from this dark cataclysm

That man called it his mind
I call it the shattered pieces of my life
From the depths a new creature must emerge
a beautiful butterfly once unheard
Spreading its wings and learning to fly
away from this place of death and demise
to find refuge and solice
in this place far from his own apocalypse
in this place of sanctitude the butterfly can be found
Perched atop a hills crown.
This butterfly now allowed to fly free
Just by a man's simple care and concern shown unto he.
End.

Blinded

Can't you see.your words are right but why can't you tell that they hurt? that they cut right through me. why are you so blind. its not like i don't know what im doing is not right but why won't you just leave it? save your 'words of wisdom' for someone who wants it. i don't want your money. just leave me, and stop trying to be the good friend who shows tough love and gets me back on my feet. IT JUST DOESNT WORK FOR EVERYONE. why cant you just see.