Learning to breath

It's all just cuz i'm learning to breathe
i'm learning to smile
to take a small step back
and walk away from this life
one filled with hatred
one filled with pain
gosh i don't know why hasnt this life made me insane

what if it was meant to be
all this shit thats been happening to me
all this pressure
all this pain
something so mundane
what if its all a test
something set by someone to seperate me from the rest
what if.

this could all be part of life
like those fuel notes that told me 'faith overcomes trials'
the trials that bind
what if all this were part of the plan
something not set in sand
but a plan solid and true
something written in black and blue

maybe its time
i broke of this chain
chained to the life i'd tried to give up
because i thought the problems were lame.
it was like ' why suffer when i can run? '
i could just hop on my bike and jump the gun.

thank something i didnt
that i didnt just leave
that something saved me
from a darker world unseen

now decisions have to be made
choices have to be selected
whether to make or break
to live life well.
or to just leave it rejected.